Corruption can start from self-contradiction
We do something for another reason, a reason that is not ours.
What our parents want as an example.
Though we actually want to do something else.
That want will never disappear until we resolve the self-contradiction.
It will just be covered by more and more experiences. That feeling that we are not doing what we actually want to be doing will never go away.
We can cover this more by job, relationship, family, various activities, vices, well defined habits.
But if that self is not seen and let go of.
It will never go away.
Ever.
You can invoke social words like duty, discipline, choice or for the greater good, any narrative you wish, but it will never be enough and you will always run out of resources, run out of energy to cover it up.
Always.
Or your body will die first.
Once it has been let go of what ever experiences that where on top of it will be effected, altered or will even come down with what ever has been let go of.
Your life in an instant may now be totally different.
Altered entirely, you may be to others a slightly or even a completely different person.
This is the fundamental reason why the self, which is born out of self conflict (If there was no self there would be no conflict), will do what ever it can to protect itself and survive.
It will see any wavering of these experiences, caused by seeing and accepting the self-conflict as a threat.
If the conflict is resolved the self above it dies, which it does not want to.
Resolving, seeing and letting go of the self conflict is the only way for that nagging feeling that you feel to come out.
To actually be living the life that you want.
If your life is stacked upon self conflict then it is not the life that you want .
Because you are conflicted.
A life without self-contradiction is the only way to live a true life, a satisfying life.
A life off the hamster wheel, free of comparison and conflict.
As conflict leads to more conflict.
A life without self-contradiction is the only life worth living
And the only life there is.
A feeling so much more joyful, satisfying and meaningful that words could never come close to explaining it or defining it.
Anything else is living in a fiction.