There is the need to achieve, something implanted on to you. A remote control.
These can be grand achievements or micro desires and achievements.
As this came to me, a micro achievement also popped out of my mind. Which I then watched float upwards like a puff of smoke and disappear.
If I had tried to diagnose that micro achievement, to label it or problem solve it, it would have taken root inside and then the thing that I was doing I would no longer be doing.
I would be doing this to get to that, so I would be doing neither and would not be experiencing now.
Another micro achievement just popped out of me, a spark of a more productive and functional way to communicate what I am doing, I watched it leave like a puff of smoke and disappear.
There will always be a residue of the energy we label as feelings, desires, fictions and problems to solve created by thought, no mater how clean, open and accepting of the moment we are.
There will almost always be some waste residue i in there from experiencing the moment.
Fighting it, telling yourself that it doesn’t matter and that you should not be doing it, is a trap, it is you fooling yourself, that is the smoke of experience settling and taking root.
The more accepting you are of the present moment, the less you hold on to, the less these puffs of smoke will appear out of you.
Though you may be surprised, you may be having a lovely open, in the moment experience, then from deep inside you some old experience rises.
This is just a natural movement of living in our current bodies, this happens.
The only difference is, do you watch the smoke rise up and leave, or do you hold on to it, examine it, judge and allow the smoke of experience to settle and take root.
The simple truth is, if you watch the smoke rise up and leave, it will leave and disappear, it will pass.
As all things will pass.
This is a fundamental of existence,
All things will pass.