It really doesn’t matter as long as you are honestly enjoying it, because if you are not enjoying it now you will not enjoy it later.
You will look back at the work with a sense of discomfort as it will bring up these feelings.
If you are not naturally enjoying it then you are not really doing it, you were somewhere else when it was being done.
This is where the lack of joy and the conflict comes from, you where never really there you where somewhere else.
You were driving with the hand break on.
Of course it's going to be uncomfortable.
What ever you do, if you do not enjoy it as you do it, nothing will change that, as the only thing that is real is what you are doing as you do it.
Something done for authenticity and joy, is more rewarding and satisfying than anything else that you could possibly do.
Anything.
Anything at all.
There is no big or small, no grand or not grand, no successful or unsuccessful.
If you did not enjoy it in the moment is was not worth doing and not what you should have been doing.
Do what you have natural talent doing,
What you are curious about, that you enjoy doing?
Anything else is not worth doing.
If there is something that your are talented in but don’t enjoy doing, look at it, just to see, to observe and watch why there is lack a of joy, to see clearly where the stagnation is.
So it can be fully seen and let go of, so that your talent can evolve into what it should be.
No talent, no skill, or experience is wasted, there is everything in everything.
If there is discomfort in that talent, then you are carrying too much experience, desire and judgment around it, weighing you down and stopping the ability for that talent to evolve in to what it should grow in to.
There is only what you should be doing.
There is nothing else